I have been thinking a lot lately how most of the time
like a spoilt little kid i want what I can’t have especially because I can’t have it.
Have I found a solution for this?no,I can’t say I have completely
I still want

Theo walcott to send a special shoutout to me during an interview
I still want

Bowwow or Trey

to serenade me outside my flat building
I still want to go to

an all you can eat buffet for lunch,breakfast and dinner daily
without having a care in the world about my health
I still want that model scout to say to me

‘I think you should be on the runway’
I still want that hunky guy minding his own business in the library

to notice when I walk past
I still want to

snap my fingers and immediately get over that guy i really need to be over.
which got me thinking
there are so many things that can damage the heart,
most of which we are in control of, some of which we are not.
the guy you could possibly fall madly in love with or
who you are in love with who ends up dissapointing you

in more ways than you can imagine a.k.a heartbreak
All eat and drink and no exercise

Those stimulants forlackof a better word we tend to overindulge in that usually become habits

Stress due to relationships with family,friends,circles,work,school,economy,other issues

So i still want what I cant have,and I have suffered damage to the heart due to various reasons bt for the minority of things i can control,from tomorrow,today’s already gone
I’m one step closer to finding that solution and Ima start with

Proverbs 4:23
Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it. (NIV)
Keep and guard your heart with all vigilance and above all that you guard, for out of it flow the springs of life. (AMP)
Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life. (KJV)
